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Another Good Day

I think I'm on a roll here...

It was a good day, despite the fact that I had to set my alarm early. I bundled up and walked to Starbucks then caught a bus downtown for my meeting at The Arthritis Society. I'm still doing volunteer work for them - different than before - and stay tuned for not one but TWO major initiatives launching soon that I've got my paws all over. I'm *so* super excited about them both, I just about danced out of that office.

Oh, and surprised about the whole bus-in-the-cold thing? Me too, kind of. But it was a heck of a lot warmer than starting my car and a heck of a lot less stressful than trying to find parking. Would you also be surprised to know that when I was working those two days last week at my client's office, I *walked* there? It was freaking cold, but I actually kind of enjoyed it. I'm walking there again in the morning. And yet, I'm not losing any weight at all... Sigh. It's one of the great mysteries of life.

Anyway. Geoff + Briony picked me up at lunchtime and we spent a few hours running errands. And then we got home and I did some work and then I was feeling inspired by the success of my gingerbread yesterday so I decided to try making crostini for the first time - with vanilla, almonds, hazelnuts, dried cherries, and currants. I MUST be feeling better. They are *almost* done... I decided to leave the final baking part for tomorrow night when Emily comes to do some other baking with me. But they smell awesome.

I was feeling pretty good about myself, and about my day, until it was bedtime - and I didn't feel like sleeping. At all. And then reality came and punched me right in the face. I suddenly remembered The Other Time In My Life When I Was Taking These Particular Pills. And I remembered why I had stopped. Because they acted like a stimulant for me during the day, but it didn't wear off in time for me to sleep... So I eventually had to start taking a little something at night too. And then the dosage of each medication slooooowly started creeping up until I was both Seriously Drugged To Wake Up and Seriously Drugged To Sleep. I'm sending fervent prayers in the general direction of the sky hoping that we can figure something out to avoid that whole scenario again, because - for right now - we're keeping the drugs.

Oh, and did I mention that my gallbladder is acting up again? Because my gallbladder is acting up again. This surgery cannot come soon enough (and no, I don't have a date yet). I can't believe how excited I am for someone to cut my abdomen open and remove stuff :)

Labels: Active Living, Being Domestic, Happy Thoughts, The Arthritis Society

posted by Lindsay @ 11:49 PM 2 comments

Being A Loser

So I've signed myself up for a Biggest Loser Challenge, organized by my friend Mel. The deal is that we are being organized into teams of five people and working to be the team with the biggest percentage of weight loss between now and Christmas. We'll weigh in weekly and the winning team will pocket some cash just in time for the holidays.

I'm mostly excited about it. I'm also a little bit scared, if we're being honest here (and I see no reason not to be honest). I feel like I'm in a good place with all my post-eating disorder post-baby weight stuff... But this is the real test, isn't it? For months, I've let myself gain weight - and then plateau thirty pounds heavier than I've ever been in my life - because I'm too scared to try to lose weight, too scared to open up a book that's been closed, too scared that I'm just setting myself up to fail. The result is that I'm overweight and I don't like myself very much. Blech. Talk about a sad stereotype.

I'm actually reading a good book right now - Gaining by Aimee Liu - about life after eating disorders. And there's a particularly good chapter in the book about the potential implications for pregnancy, post-pregnancy, and raising a healthy child. My hope is that more and more people will talk about this, because I sure as heck can't be the only one. Well, I guess there are definitely two of us: me and Aimee Liu :)

I need to try this weight loss thing, but I'm approaching it cautiously. My goals are pretty small - and that's where I need to start. The very best part is that Geoff has signed up too. Looks like it will be a healthy, active autumn in the Wright household. I'm already weeping over all the NOs I'll be saying around Thanksgiving... And American Thanksgiving... And Geoff + Briony's birthdays...

Labels: Active Living, Mommy Stuff, My Life

posted by Lindsay @ 11:11 AM 1 comments